All I Want is Love
AMERICAN APPAREL RAGLAN PULLOVER, T BY ALEXANDER WANG TANK TOP, ASOS JEANS, H&M SOCKS, PRADA SHOES, CLUB MONACO HAT
I'm at a very strange time in my life right now. All I want is to love without restrain and to be loved with the same intensity and passion; however, before I can love someone else, I need to learn to love myself first. Easier said than done, especially since the majority of my 22-year existence has been spent feeling like a worthless piece of shit, but I digress...
I want to share another passage with you all from Mark Nepo's The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have. I can't recommend this book enough. He speaks so much truth it's ridiculous.
"In loving ourselves, we love the world. For just as fire, rock, and water are all made up of molecules, everything, including you and me, is connected by a small piece of the beginning.
Yet, how do we love ourselves? It is as difficult at times as seeing the back of your head. It can be as elusive as it is necessary. I have tried and tripped many times. And I can only say that loving yourself is like feeding a clear bird that no one else can see. You must be still and offer your palmful of secrets like delicate seed. As she eats your secrets, no longer secret, she glows and you lighten, and her voice, which only you can hear, is your voice bereft of plans. And the light through her body will bathe you till you wonder why the gems in your palm were ever fisted. Others will think you crazed to wait on something no one sees. But the clear bird only wants to feed and fly and sing. She only wants light in her belly. And once in a great while, if someone loves you enough, they might see her rise from the nest beneath your fear.
In this way, I've learned that loving yourself requires a courage unlike any other. It requires us to believe in and stay loyal to something no one else can see that keeps us in the world—our own self-worth.
All the great moments of conception—the birth of mountains, of trees, of fish, of prophets, and the truth of relationships that last—all begin where no one can see, and it is our job not to extinguish what is so beautifully begun. For once full of light, everything is safely on its way—not pain-free, but unencumbered—and the air beneath your wings is the same air that trills in my throat, and the empty benches in snow are as much as part of us as the empty figures who slouch on them in spring.
When we believe in what no one else can see, we find we are each other. And all moments of living, no matter how difficult, come back into some central point where self and world are one, where light pours in and out at once. And once there, I realize—make real before me—that this moment, whatever it might be, is a fine moment to live and a fine moment to die." — January 25, Loving Yourself, p. 29
I will learn to love myself. Unconditionally. Totally. Constantly. Restlessly. All in due time, even if it kills me. I'll keep marchin' on. Side note: Ryan Tedder gives me a lady boner. I just thought I'd put that out there.
XOXO,
I want to share another passage with you all from Mark Nepo's The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have. I can't recommend this book enough. He speaks so much truth it's ridiculous.
"In loving ourselves, we love the world. For just as fire, rock, and water are all made up of molecules, everything, including you and me, is connected by a small piece of the beginning.
Yet, how do we love ourselves? It is as difficult at times as seeing the back of your head. It can be as elusive as it is necessary. I have tried and tripped many times. And I can only say that loving yourself is like feeding a clear bird that no one else can see. You must be still and offer your palmful of secrets like delicate seed. As she eats your secrets, no longer secret, she glows and you lighten, and her voice, which only you can hear, is your voice bereft of plans. And the light through her body will bathe you till you wonder why the gems in your palm were ever fisted. Others will think you crazed to wait on something no one sees. But the clear bird only wants to feed and fly and sing. She only wants light in her belly. And once in a great while, if someone loves you enough, they might see her rise from the nest beneath your fear.
In this way, I've learned that loving yourself requires a courage unlike any other. It requires us to believe in and stay loyal to something no one else can see that keeps us in the world—our own self-worth.
All the great moments of conception—the birth of mountains, of trees, of fish, of prophets, and the truth of relationships that last—all begin where no one can see, and it is our job not to extinguish what is so beautifully begun. For once full of light, everything is safely on its way—not pain-free, but unencumbered—and the air beneath your wings is the same air that trills in my throat, and the empty benches in snow are as much as part of us as the empty figures who slouch on them in spring.
When we believe in what no one else can see, we find we are each other. And all moments of living, no matter how difficult, come back into some central point where self and world are one, where light pours in and out at once. And once there, I realize—make real before me—that this moment, whatever it might be, is a fine moment to live and a fine moment to die." — January 25, Loving Yourself, p. 29
I will learn to love myself. Unconditionally. Totally. Constantly. Restlessly. All in due time, even if it kills me. I'll keep marchin' on. Side note: Ryan Tedder gives me a lady boner. I just thought I'd put that out there.
XOXO,
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Love those red pants and leopard heels!
Great Look!
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XOXO
I like the hat and the pullover.. Very much!
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Your looking hot gurl. A little feel of Michael Jackson :).
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Deep excerpt. I can't say this enough but your posts are inspiring BEYOND what you are wearing. I guess some people only pay attention to the fashion. I get more out of your content. Thank you :)
xx Rina
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absolutely fabulous red pants
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x
God loves me unconditionally. He is my strength. I'm sorry you lived your life thinking your not worthy.. but.. you are so, so worthy. There is not a day that goes by without someone who loves you for who you are. You are so amazing as it is! just so you know.
I feel like we have been experiencing the same thing for a while now...looking back at most of your posts. You are really inspirational, Lily! While I may not agree with some of the things you say, I find that I can really relate with you on this.
Obviously one of the reasons why you are my favorite blogger. Lol in fact you are the only blog I actually read instead of just glancing at the photos.
Im looking forward to your endavor that is loving yourself :)
Beautiful post...gorgeous outfit!
xx
I love your post. It is true that you can't love anyone truly until you love yourself and also until you respect yourself.
Have strength it will happen for you.
Love the red pants on you!
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...aaand this is why i love visiting your blog. thanks for sharing :) y'know, when i felt like that...i listened to whitney houston's "greatest love of all". cheesy? maybe. but it's my go-to song during those times. cheers -a
I feel like most days I hate myself. I will sit for hours and compare myself to just about everyone else and make myself think that I'm worthless. I know it's horrible and it's awful, but I do it. That's why I know I need to not take my friendships and relationships for granted. I often times think people are lying when they tell me they love me. BUT I assure you with all of my sincerity I mean it when I say I love you! You often put into words what I feel and can't manage to say out loud. <3
KeepItFvncy,
M.E.
P.S. - Hot shoes biiiiitch! (does crazy face and z-snap)
Great styling, love every piece of your outfit!
xoxo
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once again, you inspired me. loving others may be easy, however loving one's self is a hard core case. its just so hard sometimes to accept ourselves as a whole when all the time we see flaws everywhere in ourselves.
starting from now, i'll pamper myself more, trully admire my own body, and filter out all those negative perception about myself. thanks for litting up the light, lily
Perfect pants!!
Loveeeeee your shoes honey <33
I agree u have to start with loving yourself first...u look amazin!!!
Love your blog! I was eyeing that hat on shopbop. Great choice!
You're rocking the hell out of those Prada shoes!!
Nice hat! I was eyeing it myself on shopbop. Love your blog by the way.
wow one of your best outfit posts (i think) I am way to obsessed with those red pants with the hat!!!
one of the most amazing posts ever
thank you for this
also, i truly covet your red asos pants.
love
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I think you're beautiful inside and out!
I absolutely love your posts because to me you write from the heart...which is so inspiring! I also have those days:/ I hope your days get better:)
The heels with those red pants is Ahhhhmazing!!!!
Love those heels! The operative word being 'love' :)
I thought I'd share with you one of my favorite quotes from a book I read, "Elizabeth and After":
“Mysteries begin with the body but sometimes the mystery is not death but love. There is so much to love. Cats. Bits of dust caught by the light. Colours. Unexpected waterfalls. And of course: the body. Warm skin on cool sheets. The blood’s night hum. Summer heat seeping through damp moss. The raw smell of an oak tree opened in winter. A long-missed voice over the telephone. So much to love that life should be made out of loving, so many ways of loving that all stories should be love stories.” (p.190)
You inspired me to blog about love too :)
delicious heels... how unconventional to match with red pants.. but so damn sexy!
I totally feel you on this one. I'm learning to love myself and see my true value. We do not see ourselves as others do, and we are oftentimes too harsh. It's a process, but I am slowly embracing what sets me apart from other people unabashedly and trying not to hold anything back! Great post!
Those heels. My stomach got butterflies when i saw them. Amazing!
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loving yourself is very important...and you are right to understand that you can't sustain any type of healthy loving relationship with out doing so first..Im in love with your shoes!! what store did you get them from??
i love that you post a piece of your soul and how you are aching to create a nurturing love of self, and 50% of the commenters are like, "great shoes, I need red pants."
yes, the pants and shoes are amazing, but that is nothing in comparison with the person wearing them.
in the end, it doesn't matter how incredible i think you are and how much I love you for your ferocity and our vulnerability in equal measure, and how willing you are to put it out there. i've said it a million times, you're gorgeous inside and out, and brilliant. so bloody brilliant. there are times i'm surprised to find myself thinking it, but i think you might be more clever than i am! :) and of course i love you dearly. i think of you as such a very good friend... but none of that matters, indeed, none of that could be truly felt as deeply as it needs to if the person we love doesn't feel that love for themselves.
you will get there. you are on the right path. just remember that the moment you are in is leading you to learning how to Be. be present in this moment, it is taking you where you need to go.
you are an incredibly human being, lily.
love you much.
Xx,
Mae Lu @ thereafterish.
i couldn't agree with you more lily. simply from following your blog, i've seen how talented and passionate you are about fashion. your closet must be amazing!
but truthfully, it's always important to inspire and encourage yourself because when no one else is there, you've all you got.
keep your head up girl + stay fierce!
I love your photos, it's diffrent all the other, have something 'magical' :)
greetings
I agree with Sherina :)
Awww.. I've been watching this shoes for year now! They are amazing! Love the pics! M.
Your shoes are amazing!
X
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Good luck love. It's not as easy as it sounds, is it? Just seen some lovely pics on Facebook of my ex holding hands with the girl he told me he would rather be with than get back with me after, after a few months apart, I told him I still loved him and missed him. Unhelpful words from things like Sex and the City abound in my head that the one who dates first, wins, and though I have dated since him, I know I need to take some time on my own to get over it all. It's hard to value yourself when the one who told you he loved you all those years seems to move on from you so quickly, but it's even harder to still be in a situation where everything you do has to be done to be better than him. So I hear you on the whole 'loving yourself' thing. I just need to have time to forget about him, and do everything solely on my own terms. Because that's the only way I can ever win.
Oh, and you should love yourself. You're stunning, clever, witty and with a fabulous collection of shoes :)
love the combo red + leopard, so cool! <3
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Hi lily! What a great post, not only do I love your blog for the wonderful pictures you post but more so for the content you write, thank you for sharing this, I needed something like this today. I will now definitely check out the book you recommended! You are one of the first people I followed on here, and well I just wanted to let you know that I absolutely love your blog. Your words are so captivating and your beauty is angelic everything you write is amazing your whole blog has this nostalgic vibe that I love, you’re truly an inspiration from your fashion sense to you as a human being, such a great person I can tell. You're stunning, and I love your personality that I sense from reading your blog. And you’re just the most intriguing person I’ve come across on here. Just wanted to tell you that! :)
First step, is to laugh at the things you do wrong and celebrate the things you do right! Also, acknowledge that you already love yourself enough to put booth feet on the floor every morning! Thats a big deal!
besos,lynn
these photos are fire! love the shoes and the little stocknet socks
xoxo Monroe
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That's a stunning look babe! It's great to see the red pants with the leopard heels! xx
completely love your outfit - - also, that book sounds interesting. i think i'l give it a read
This is deep stuff!
I know where your coming from, I have always been in search of true happiness and i recently read somewhere that you have to find hapiness within yourself before you can find it anywhere else(Well something like that)
I truly believe it the same thing for love. the 1st step is always to truly love yourself before anyone else can do so! I know that now (and my past relationship has suffered because i didn't love myself).
On this i wish you well in your search of self worth, I know you will find it.
Cynthia
Nice pose, and as for those shoes!love it! But about your post, its wierd because i see someone who seems to have everything and its hard to imagine that someone so beautiful can't seem to find love within them. But you know yourself better than anyone else. So i hope you find the love your looking for and i also hope you see that there is everything about you worth loving.
thank you
thank you
Ha....Who are you.....The ManRepeller....!? :-)
But seriously, ♥ your POST, Lily... ♉
And, ♥ how you've paired those #SICK Prada shoes with the socks & the red jeans... An unexpected combo that really works → See, this is why I ♥ your BLOG & your STYLE, Lily... ☆
And, I think I can still catch a glimpse of that beautiful "BALANCE" tattoo of yours... ♥
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wow your posts are simply amazing...not just for the photos (which by the way, your shoes in this post absolutely rock) but the messages you are always putting out there are so inspiring and really make you think. you're not afraid to voice your deepest emotions and opinions and that is truly courageous to do with strangers who you have no idea who they are. i agree on everything that you said in your post and can relate to a big part of it as well. keep on that path to finding yourself and realize that you always have someone that loves you, even if you don't think so.
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love ur outfit!! great combination!!!
xxxx
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Lily, you are obnoxiously talented. You are a true visionary and i LOVE your blog
Leon
Love those shoes!
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Holy crap, that outfit is SO perfect.
Everyone deserves pure love, both from themselves and others.
I don't know if you'll read this it would be nice to know you did, I love your blog, the fashion is cool, the pictures are interesting and the post titles always catch me. But it's your words and the inspiring words of others that always make me come back.
I always feel enlightened when I come to your site and I sense the pain that lurks between your words. I know the Internet has a certain anonymity but I would like you to know I've been where you've been, in fact a little further from that, and I know what it's like to be in the dark.
I know we don't know each other, but I'd like you to know that there are others who feel your pain and if I could light a candle so you could see a way out of the dark I would. Wishing you the best and continue with the inspirational and entertaining bitchy posts. Stay blessed T.
so yea...i freakin love your blog :-)
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Love these pictures and your outfit! Nice shoes ;)
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Those polkadot socks are the cutest!
i am so into red and leopard together!
and such a great way to style the two with a casual grey pullover.
the internal journey is worth taking.
xoxo
alicia
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I think I just fell in LOVE with your blog from this post. How amazing. I think sometimes we think our thoughts and feeling are unique, and we forget that other people in the world are experience the same feelings/emotions. This post really summed up how I have been feeling lately. Thanks for writing it!
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