Smile for the Camera
SANDRO SWEATER, CURRENT/ELLIOTT DENIM SHORTS, WILFRED BELT, PRADA SHOES, CHANEL BAG, RAY-BAN SUNGLASSES
WILFRED BLOUSE, T.BABATON SKIRT, LONELY HEARTS BRA, GUCCI SHOES, CHANEL BAG
SANDRO BLOUSE, FREE PEOPLE SHORTS, GUCCI SHOES, CHANEL BAG, MICHAEL KORS WATCH
3 outfits, 1 day. I'm the furthest thing from a model. Expressing facial emotions is difficult when you have chronic bitchface. A big thank you to Patrick Leung for a fun shoot. You can see Patrick's portfolio here, as well as on his blog. I guarantee you won't be disappointed.
XOXO,
XOXO,
Forever 27
"It's okay in the day
I'm staying busy
Tied up enough so I don't have to wonder where is he
Got so sick of crying
So just lately
When I catch myself I do a 180
I stay up clean the house
At least I'm not drinking
Run around just so I don't have to think about thinking
That silent sense of content
That everyone gets
Just disappears soon as the sun sets..." — Amy Winehouse
Every now and then I feel so much unexplainable sadness at night; the only time I allow my heart to truly feel. This Friday will be my sister's 4-year death anniversary. Rest in paradise Linda Nguyen Englehart, Amy Winehouse and the countless I've left unmentioned. Live free in a place far better than this one.
XOXO,
I'm staying busy
Tied up enough so I don't have to wonder where is he
Got so sick of crying
So just lately
When I catch myself I do a 180
I stay up clean the house
At least I'm not drinking
Run around just so I don't have to think about thinking
That silent sense of content
That everyone gets
Just disappears soon as the sun sets..." — Amy Winehouse
Every now and then I feel so much unexplainable sadness at night; the only time I allow my heart to truly feel. This Friday will be my sister's 4-year death anniversary. Rest in paradise Linda Nguyen Englehart, Amy Winehouse and the countless I've left unmentioned. Live free in a place far better than this one.
XOXO,
Bag Lady
We all carry emotional baggage with us into relationships, which inevitably affects how we behave. As we grow older, our baggage only accumulates with every experience, heartache and heartbreak. I believe it defines who we are, but I also believe the baggage we carry is a choice. We can either hold on and allow it to destroy us, or we can let go, start over and salvage through the distorted emotions and misconceptions. I've mentioned before how I'd hate to think that another's actions dominate my reaction, and therefore hold a grudge on the world because I was wronged by one person.
We often blame others for our unhappiness and incompetence. I know because I used to be this way. Although change doesn't happen overnight, the truth of the matter is we have the power to alter our state of mind. What used to be an emptiness inside my soul is now a place overflowing with compassion and yearning. Like all past trials and tribulations have suddenly vanished, and all that's left in my memory are glorified triumphs; like my heart was cleansed of all aches and pains, and I feel nothing but the tender touch of love.
It could all be so simple. You know the rest.
XOXO,
We often blame others for our unhappiness and incompetence. I know because I used to be this way. Although change doesn't happen overnight, the truth of the matter is we have the power to alter our state of mind. What used to be an emptiness inside my soul is now a place overflowing with compassion and yearning. Like all past trials and tribulations have suddenly vanished, and all that's left in my memory are glorified triumphs; like my heart was cleansed of all aches and pains, and I feel nothing but the tender touch of love.
It could all be so simple. You know the rest.
XOXO,
Alone But Not Lonely
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A year later this video resonates with me still. Fact: I often eat out and watch movies alone. I feel slightly odd and isolated at first, but then I realize I'm my own best company. If you're reading this, you may be crinkling your face either in disgust or bewilderment; however, contrary to what most people think, I actually enjoy my solitude. This doesn't necessarily mean I don't enjoy laying next to that special someone in bed. I have few close friends, many acquaintances and a large social network, but when it comes down to the nitty gritty, it's just me, myself and I (thanks, Beyoncé).
My best friend, Carrie, once wrote: "It's only when you are alone, you are able to truly be yourself. There's no one around to impress. There's no explaining or misunderstanding. There's no pretense. No facade. No secret. Just you in your most raw and vulnerable state. You can think your thoughts. You can feel your feelings. You can be you by just being you. Of course not everyone can do this with the same ease and confidence as those who are have master the skill of being alone, but then those who are comfortable and secure in their own solitude truly knows what it means to have a relationship with themselves."
Being alone and being lonely are two completely different things. It's only when you finally accept even just the possibility of being alone, you will never be lonely again.
XOXO,
My best friend, Carrie, once wrote: "It's only when you are alone, you are able to truly be yourself. There's no one around to impress. There's no explaining or misunderstanding. There's no pretense. No facade. No secret. Just you in your most raw and vulnerable state. You can think your thoughts. You can feel your feelings. You can be you by just being you. Of course not everyone can do this with the same ease and confidence as those who are have master the skill of being alone, but then those who are comfortable and secure in their own solitude truly knows what it means to have a relationship with themselves."
Being alone and being lonely are two completely different things. It's only when you finally accept even just the possibility of being alone, you will never be lonely again.
XOXO,
Playing Favorites
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I generally don't wear much jewelry on a regular basis, but these are my current favorite pieces.
PHOTOS BY JESSY OF THE DRESSING ROOM
XOXO,
PHOTOS BY JESSY OF THE DRESSING ROOM
XOXO,
This Is for You
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"Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as fuel, as a reminder of your strength." — August Wilson via Mae of thereafterish
I'm grateful for the close friends I have. To those who've always been there, you've helped me through my toughest moments. To those who've left during the hardest times, you've made me aware of whom my real friends are. To those whom I've revealed my most precious thoughts to and have listened, you've helped me better understand myself. To those whom I've shared my feelings to and chose to ignore me, you've taught me that I've been too trusting. To those whom I have wronged and have chosen to forgive me, you've shown me what true friendship really is. Thank you.
On a less-important-but-I'm-going-to-share-anyway-note, I had my eyelash extensions removed. It feels good to rub my eyes and put my face directly under the shower head again.
XOXO,
I'm grateful for the close friends I have. To those who've always been there, you've helped me through my toughest moments. To those who've left during the hardest times, you've made me aware of whom my real friends are. To those whom I've revealed my most precious thoughts to and have listened, you've helped me better understand myself. To those whom I've shared my feelings to and chose to ignore me, you've taught me that I've been too trusting. To those whom I have wronged and have chosen to forgive me, you've shown me what true friendship really is. Thank you.
On a less-important-but-I'm-going-to-share-anyway-note, I had my eyelash extensions removed. It feels good to rub my eyes and put my face directly under the shower head again.
XOXO,
Keep On Dancing
On Friday my friend Cody and I attended the Britney Spears concert with special guests Nervo, Jessie and the Toy Boys and Nicki Minaj (who, by the way, killed it, murdered it, mutilated it, however you want to put it!). Being my first concert, I found it so inspiring in the midst of all the chaos in today's society, to see people from all walks of life of varying age groups come together to watch one person perform. I know Britney is an acquired taste and would not signify a defining moment in some people's lives, but in mine she does. I admit there was a time when I was a closeted Britney fan, but now I will proudly shout it from the rooftops. You either love her or hate her, and I love her.
XOXO,
XOXO,
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